[She holds his hand tighter and brings it closer to her body.]
But you didn't and you need to realise and accept that fact just as much as you cling to the one that you almost did. Otherwise this is going to eat you alive for the rest of your life and no false bravado is going to make you feel better. Live, like everyone back home can do because a disaster was adverted.
You need to let yourself heal from it and it's not something my powers or much of anything can do.
You know what I did to stop it?! Nothing! I betrayed my lifelong friend's trust and dragged my own crew down with me, all because I couldn't see how wrong I was!
[there's anger in his eyes, but not directed at angela. it's all internalized.]
You don't-- you don't get it. I knew I could never be forgiven or forgive myself for what I'd done but I wanted to work towards a better future, now that I know my mistakes. Live and learn, yeah? But every time I wanted to watch the sunset or go for a walk with Crobat all I could see was things I almost ruined!
You're right, I don't get it. I've never been in a position where I could have been the cause for something like that and I'm not going to pretend I understand how you feel or what you've gone through. But I've seen people struggle like you are. Blame themselves and hold onto that blame.
Archie, I'm sorry that you're going through this, and I wish that I could do more to help. I can offer an impartial ear to talk to and listen and I can offer you my support in how you feel.
[She knows she wasn't quite done with healing him, so her hands hover at his chest and she uses her powers.]
Please don't suffer in silence. Please talk whenever you feel like you just have to say something.
[while he'd hunched over, archie leans back and closes his eyes all the way, squeezing them shut. he misses shelly, he misses matt, he misses the ones who did understand. his lips part slightly in a wince. arceus, he's so selfish. when did he go so wrong? she's literally putting herself out for him and he's sitting here wanting his friends like a stupid kid.]
...Dunno what else to say. I just can't forgive myself for it.
UHM SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT WHY DID I NOT TAG THIS SOONER?!?!
Then don't forgive yourself, but don't let it eat you alive either.
You're world, you're home has another chance and so do you by being here. This world can be horrible and it can be hard and we're at war, but you can do good and maybe use that as a way to possibly atone.
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But you didn't and you need to realise and accept that fact just as much as you cling to the one that you almost did. Otherwise this is going to eat you alive for the rest of your life and no false bravado is going to make you feel better. Live, like everyone back home can do because a disaster was adverted.
You need to let yourself heal from it and it's not something my powers or much of anything can do.
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You know what I did to stop it?! Nothing! I betrayed my lifelong friend's trust and dragged my own crew down with me, all because I couldn't see how wrong I was!
[there's anger in his eyes, but not directed at angela. it's all internalized.]
You don't-- you don't get it. I knew I could never be forgiven or forgive myself for what I'd done but I wanted to work towards a better future, now that I know my mistakes. Live and learn, yeah? But every time I wanted to watch the sunset or go for a walk with Crobat all I could see was things I almost ruined!
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You're right, I don't get it. I've never been in a position where I could have been the cause for something like that and I'm not going to pretend I understand how you feel or what you've gone through. But I've seen people struggle like you are. Blame themselves and hold onto that blame.
Archie, I'm sorry that you're going through this, and I wish that I could do more to help. I can offer an impartial ear to talk to and listen and I can offer you my support in how you feel.
[She knows she wasn't quite done with healing him, so her hands hover at his chest and she uses her powers.]
Please don't suffer in silence. Please talk whenever you feel like you just have to say something.
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...Dunno what else to say. I just can't forgive myself for it.
UHM SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT WHY DID I NOT TAG THIS SOONER?!?!
You're world, you're home has another chance and so do you by being here. This world can be horrible and it can be hard and we're at war, but you can do good and maybe use that as a way to possibly atone.
LMAO ITS COOL
[which he only got close to doing because the stupid universe shit him out into ANOTHER one with no friends or resources.]
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[Angela lets out a sigh and stops the beam, she brings a hand to her forehead and rubs the back of her hand across it.]
That ought to do it. You might find that your ribs will feel tender for a day, maybe two at most but you're healed.
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Thanks, Angie. I'll try not to get kicked into a tree again.
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But also, anytime.
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[he smiles a little more genuinely at her, then suddenly pulls her in for a BIG OL' HUG.]
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Thanks again, doc. I'll let you know if I make any more bad decisions.
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You better! Because if I find out you have, but haven't told me, you'll be walking away with a lovely bump on your head.
[She's smiling, and only partially joking. More likely she'll just hit his arm.]
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