[She knew that she would still help him. She wouldn't be able to stop herself from really helping if she knew someone needed it. Even if they were considered an enemy because then she would be no better than them.]
Let me be the judge of that. But spoiler; I would regardless.
[That wasn't what she had expected at all and she looked shocked. He didn't come across as the kind of person to do something like that, but then there were people she had seen, companies, organisations, that were harming the world.]
But it was stopped. Did you plan for the world to be drowned?
I wanted... what I wanted was another chance. For everyone. I thought the way everyone was living was unsustainable for nature and that humanity was destroying it. So, what was the best way to get everything back to it's unspoiled beginnings? Water!
[this is literally what he thought.]
Kyogre is a legendary beast known for being the personification of the sea. I thought if I woke it up and used an artifact I could control it and get it to do what I wanted. It didn't work out for a bunch of reasons and we had to get an... 11 year old kid to do what I couldn't.
[it's clear the kid part is probably his biggest issue with the whole thing. archie may have thought he was going to die, but if anything had happened to the scamp he would've never forgiven himself. ...harder than he already isn't forgiving himself.]
[She listens to him as he explains what had happened. She couldn't imagine a world that had creatures capable of that, or to use a child to help stop a catastrophe, even if they were capable.
She stops healing and reaches down to take his hand in both of hers.]
I'm not going to excuse what you did you thought it was the right thing to do, I'm just glad it was stopped and that no one died. I don't condone the use of children in a dangerous environment but I'm glad they were there. You made a mistake, I'd like to think you've learned from it. I'm not going to sit here and lecture you on why it's awful, I can tell that it's something you carry with you and it's hurting you inside.
Is that - is that why you've been getting into so many fights?
[She holds his hand tighter and brings it closer to her body.]
But you didn't and you need to realise and accept that fact just as much as you cling to the one that you almost did. Otherwise this is going to eat you alive for the rest of your life and no false bravado is going to make you feel better. Live, like everyone back home can do because a disaster was adverted.
You need to let yourself heal from it and it's not something my powers or much of anything can do.
You know what I did to stop it?! Nothing! I betrayed my lifelong friend's trust and dragged my own crew down with me, all because I couldn't see how wrong I was!
[there's anger in his eyes, but not directed at angela. it's all internalized.]
You don't-- you don't get it. I knew I could never be forgiven or forgive myself for what I'd done but I wanted to work towards a better future, now that I know my mistakes. Live and learn, yeah? But every time I wanted to watch the sunset or go for a walk with Crobat all I could see was things I almost ruined!
You're right, I don't get it. I've never been in a position where I could have been the cause for something like that and I'm not going to pretend I understand how you feel or what you've gone through. But I've seen people struggle like you are. Blame themselves and hold onto that blame.
Archie, I'm sorry that you're going through this, and I wish that I could do more to help. I can offer an impartial ear to talk to and listen and I can offer you my support in how you feel.
[She knows she wasn't quite done with healing him, so her hands hover at his chest and she uses her powers.]
Please don't suffer in silence. Please talk whenever you feel like you just have to say something.
[while he'd hunched over, archie leans back and closes his eyes all the way, squeezing them shut. he misses shelly, he misses matt, he misses the ones who did understand. his lips part slightly in a wince. arceus, he's so selfish. when did he go so wrong? she's literally putting herself out for him and he's sitting here wanting his friends like a stupid kid.]
...Dunno what else to say. I just can't forgive myself for it.
UHM SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT WHY DID I NOT TAG THIS SOONER?!?!
Then don't forgive yourself, but don't let it eat you alive either.
You're world, you're home has another chance and so do you by being here. This world can be horrible and it can be hard and we're at war, but you can do good and maybe use that as a way to possibly atone.
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[She knew that she would still help him. She wouldn't be able to stop herself from really helping if she knew someone needed it. Even if they were considered an enemy because then she would be no better than them.]
Let me be the judge of that. But spoiler; I would regardless.
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[he trusts her, yeah, but it's also something he feels he should tell her. he's a horrible person and she's been so nice...]
I unleashed a powerful god-type thing that would've drowned the world if it hadn't been stopped.
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But it was stopped. Did you plan for the world to be drowned?
[She didn't stop healing him.]
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[this is literally what he thought.]
Kyogre is a legendary beast known for being the personification of the sea. I thought if I woke it up and used an artifact I could control it and get it to do what I wanted. It didn't work out for a bunch of reasons and we had to get an... 11 year old kid to do what I couldn't.
[it's clear the kid part is probably his biggest issue with the whole thing. archie may have thought he was going to die, but if anything had happened to the scamp he would've never forgiven himself. ...harder than he already isn't forgiving himself.]
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She stops healing and reaches down to take his hand in both of hers.]
I'm not going to excuse what you did you thought it was the right thing to do, I'm just glad it was stopped and that no one died. I don't condone the use of children in a dangerous environment but I'm glad they were there. You made a mistake, I'd like to think you've learned from it. I'm not going to sit here and lecture you on why it's awful, I can tell that it's something you carry with you and it's hurting you inside.
Is that - is that why you've been getting into so many fights?
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I didn't-- want the little scamp to have to--
[honestly? he hates steven a bit for not even trying. some fucking champion that man is. or... was. even if the situation was archie's fault.
he exhales a long, shuddering breath.]
I almost killed everyone.
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But you didn't and you need to realise and accept that fact just as much as you cling to the one that you almost did. Otherwise this is going to eat you alive for the rest of your life and no false bravado is going to make you feel better. Live, like everyone back home can do because a disaster was adverted.
You need to let yourself heal from it and it's not something my powers or much of anything can do.
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You know what I did to stop it?! Nothing! I betrayed my lifelong friend's trust and dragged my own crew down with me, all because I couldn't see how wrong I was!
[there's anger in his eyes, but not directed at angela. it's all internalized.]
You don't-- you don't get it. I knew I could never be forgiven or forgive myself for what I'd done but I wanted to work towards a better future, now that I know my mistakes. Live and learn, yeah? But every time I wanted to watch the sunset or go for a walk with Crobat all I could see was things I almost ruined!
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You're right, I don't get it. I've never been in a position where I could have been the cause for something like that and I'm not going to pretend I understand how you feel or what you've gone through. But I've seen people struggle like you are. Blame themselves and hold onto that blame.
Archie, I'm sorry that you're going through this, and I wish that I could do more to help. I can offer an impartial ear to talk to and listen and I can offer you my support in how you feel.
[She knows she wasn't quite done with healing him, so her hands hover at his chest and she uses her powers.]
Please don't suffer in silence. Please talk whenever you feel like you just have to say something.
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...Dunno what else to say. I just can't forgive myself for it.
UHM SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT WHY DID I NOT TAG THIS SOONER?!?!
You're world, you're home has another chance and so do you by being here. This world can be horrible and it can be hard and we're at war, but you can do good and maybe use that as a way to possibly atone.
LMAO ITS COOL
[which he only got close to doing because the stupid universe shit him out into ANOTHER one with no friends or resources.]
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[Angela lets out a sigh and stops the beam, she brings a hand to her forehead and rubs the back of her hand across it.]
That ought to do it. You might find that your ribs will feel tender for a day, maybe two at most but you're healed.
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Thanks, Angie. I'll try not to get kicked into a tree again.
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But also, anytime.
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[he smiles a little more genuinely at her, then suddenly pulls her in for a BIG OL' HUG.]
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Thanks again, doc. I'll let you know if I make any more bad decisions.
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You better! Because if I find out you have, but haven't told me, you'll be walking away with a lovely bump on your head.
[She's smiling, and only partially joking. More likely she'll just hit his arm.]
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